Doubt.  I have never been one to doubt God.  I do believe that He can do all things.  I have seen healing, restoration, and amazing transformations.  He is God!

But there have been areas of my life where I have doubted God’s hand.  I guess I didn’t really doubt that He was capable, but I didn’t think He cared about those areas of my life.  Have you ever felt like that?

The past few months, all of that has changed in my view of how God works in our lives and where He shows up. I made the decision in September to take the step on a journey to better health.  I am a big girl and I always have been.  But to be quite honest…I didn’t think that was important to God.  Why would He care if I was fat?  It wasn’t a priority in my life because I felt that serving Him in ministry was much more important.  But God did something in me over the summer.  I distinctly remember hearing Him say to me that ‘He needed me to be healthy to do the work He was preparing me to do.’ Really?  I fought this long and hard, but every step in every direction was leading me down this road.  But I still doubted Him.  I had tried over and over again to lose the weight with no success.  Why was this any different?

I love the gospel of Mark. Over and over again you will see where the people were amazed or astonished.   When we are this amazed at something, doubt is present. One of the Greek words for amazed used in Mark is ekthambeo (ek-than-beh`-o).  The definition is “greatly astonished, awestruck.” ( Mark 9: 15, Mark 14:33)  Another Greek word used is ekplesso` (ek-place`-so).  The definition here is “to strike out, to strike with panic, to amaze, thunderstruck, astounded.”  (Mark 6:2, Mark 7:37).   To be that stunned with amazement, there must have been some doubt in their hearts about who Jesus was and the power He had to heal.  This was ‘knock you off your feet’ amazement!

It’s been almost 4 months since the beginning of my weight loss journey.  And God has shown me amazing things about HIM and about myself.  I have had those moments of ‘knock you of your feet’ amazement!   I am down 51 lbs.  I have a long way to go, but really? Did God just do that?


Here is what I have learned.  God is able to do immeasurably more than we could ever imagine!  (Ephesians 3:20)  Never in my history of losing weight have I given it to Him.  I have always done it in my own strength.  And the reason I doubt…is because I doubted myself due to my past failures.  God never fails!  If we give it to Him, failure isn’t an option.

“Jesus looked at them and said, With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.”  (Mark 10:27, NIV)

So very true.  When we try to do things in our own flesh, we will fail every time.

Every.  Time.

It’s 2017 and for the past few years, I have had a “word of the year”.  For 2017 that word is…


It is possible to have a healthier lifestyle.
It is possible for God to heal that relationship.  
It is possible for God to heal disease.
It is possible for God to give you the job of your dreams.
It is possible for God to cure cancer.
It is possible for God to give you financial freedom.

In what areas of your life do you need to stop doubting and give it to Him?  Let’s make 2017 a year of possibilities!  I am definitely looking forward to the journey.



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